O LORD, rebuke me not in your anger,
nor discipline me in your wrath!
For your arrows have sunk into me,
and your hand has come down on me.
There is no soundness in my flesh
because of your indignation;
there is no health in my bones
because of my sin.
For my iniquities have gone over my head;
like a heavy burden, they are too heavy for me.

My wounds stink and fester
because of my foolishness,
I am utterly bowed down and prostrate;
all the day I go about mourning.
For my sides are filled with burning,
and there is no soundness in my flesh.
I am feeble and crushed;
I groan because of the tumult of my heart.

O Lord, all my longing is before you;
my sighing is not hidden from you.
My heart throbs; my strength fails me,
and the light of my eyes—it also has gone from me.
My friends and companions stand aloof from my plague,
and my nearest kin stand far off.

Those who seek my life lay their snares;
those who seek my hurt speak of ruin
and meditate treachery all day long.

But I am like a deaf man; I do not hear,
like a mute man who does not open his mouth.
I have become like a man who does not hear,
and in whose mouth are no rebukes.

But for you, O LORD, do I wait;
it is you, O Lord my God, who will answer.
For I said, “Only let them not rejoice over me,
who boast against me when my foot slips!”

For I am ready to fall,
and my pain is ever before me.
I confess my iniquity;
I am sorry for my sin.
But my foes are vigorous, they are mighty,
and many are those who hate me wrongfully.
Those who render me evil for good
accuse me because I follow after good.

Do not forsake me, O LORD!
O my God, be not far from me!
Make haste to help me,
O Lord, my salvation!


Hello reader. I feel like I have some things that need writing, but unfortunately I can’t pin it down to anything in particular. So, I’ll just give you an update on what I’ve been up to and maybe even keep you till the end of the post.

Ever since arriving home and starting work I’ve been looking forward to moving out. I thought it might have happened sooner and thought it might have been later. But, I was definitely looking towards sooner. Well, after getting plenty of things situated here we’ve arrived at the end of summer and somehow my brother and I have worked our way into a pretty nice place at reasonable rent.

I know I just sounded like I’ve already moved in, but we haven’t yet. I think I’m just betraying my excitment at the plans. Soon, however, I can speak as if I have moved out since the plan is for that to happen this weekend. We are trying our best to do well something we’ve never done in quite this way. Yes, this is the first time we will be living on our own, for the most part. I believe that you can never fully be completely independant (unless you’re like this guy ). My brother is moving out for the first time, and I’m moving into an apartment for the first time, though I’ve moved into the dorms many many times. It’s going to be really interesting but exciting I anticipate.

Anyways, my thoughts are that I really love my family, but am really excited to be more independant. I love being on my own, something I’m sure I developed a taste for after being mostly independant at college. Family is awesome but sometimes there are times where (most people I’m sure) family is not awesome.

Well, family is back. Definitely not going to be able to concentrate on anything else worth reading.

Till next time,
Billy A.

I’m sitting on a grassy hill in the shade feeling the cool breeze drift over me as I stare at a small pond. I feel I cannot thank God enough beyond even this peaceful moment. He has brought me so far and taught me so much. There’s too much to describe. Even still I ponder my experience, knowledge, wisdom, and understanding and see that I have in my grasp no more than even a grain of sand within my vault.

Ecclesiastes 1:17

God continues to bless me, even though things don’t happen the way I would plan. I keep pondering and my curiosity grows as I think of God’s will for me.

Pray for me: that I would continue to grow in my knowledge of Him, that I would be a good example and testimony to the unbelievers around me, that I would be wise in the things I say and do as my life changes in so many ways.


Well, I’m onto a new chapter in my life. I’ve just finished getting my bachelor’s degree in business and I’m now working and living in Denver. I bought my first car ever last week and now I’m going to be working to finish paying for the education I just got and the car I’m now driving. Life is about to become a lot more normal. It’s hard to know how to take it.

I stopped blogging about… well let’s see here… the last real thoughtful post I wrote was about two years ago. And those posts came about twice a year or once a semester.
So, I’m thinking it’s about time to start writing again. I kind of stopped writing because I felt like I had started to put out more than I had inside. That, and I was really busy. Now that I’ve had quite a bit more life experience (I know, not a ton, but you can pack a lot into four years of college) I think I’d like to start writing a few things again. Now, it’s summer, so things are busy. It still may be too busy to post, getting used to work and looking for new things and getting things taken care of, but I’m hoping to do this more regularly now. I’ve had a lot of things on my mind that I’ve wanted to write about. Hopefully I’ll get the time to simmer them down into something meaningful and easy to read.
I need a new signature… I transferred my new gmail account to be the author now instead of “Yokanchi” since I feel sort of “grown up” now.
Till next time,
Billy A.

Well, this has been quite the semester. My friend and next-door neighbor eloped and dropped out of school, I was put on chapel probation without even going over the 6-miss limit, my roommate and good friend graduated this semester, I had a new boss, and I punched someone in the face while I was asleep.

Learning all along the way, I feel that I’ve matured greatly in the school of life, with my grand God the presiding head professor.

The most important lesson I feel I’ve learned this semester is how to let go of strong feelings impeding godly behavior like anger and resentment as well as feelings stemming from desires for revenge and stress from various things, not excluding homework, work, roomates and other trials of life.

God has shown me my innermost thoughts can be revealed when I least expect it, and therefore the importance of developing the right mindset brought about by correct beliefs in truth, and evidenced by correct attitudes, producing ultimately right, godly actions in my life.

Though I haven’t reacted perfectly and maybe not even in the best way, I feel that overall God has brought about these situations, and sometimes even trials, while providing me the strength in maturity and discernment to have come about through each of these things having provided an adequate and righteous reaction. In this way I feel that my experience, knowledge and wisdom have been increased this semester in a visible way, and for this I thank my almighty Creator for His providence, wisdom and loving care towards my soul through these times.

I also want to tahnk all my friends and professors fora ll the things you’ve done for me and taught me, Thanks for being there for me. Whatever happens in the future, whether I see you all again or whether your path in life departs from where God has led you to in my life. I pray that God would heap blessing upon your life and bring prosperity and joy more and more into your life!

Thanks friends!

Till next post.
Your faithful typer,
Billy A.

If you’ll take a look at the new title you’ll notice I changed the title slightly by removing an errant ‘R’ which once blotted the face of the white title parading across the top of this green glob of wordiness.

My writing teacher took a look at my blog about 2, 3, or 4 years ago and I finally realized, “you know, I could actually change that so it says what I meant.”

Anyways. For an update.
I haven’t been too specific here in this blog, at least about my current life. I’ve been a little busy for that. Seems like that started ever since I came to college. Looks like it has no signs of changing either. I like writing still, but don’t spend nearly as much time. So, I will try and update, but if you’re curious for more facts or a closer look, or want to know how I”m doing, just ring me up, shoot me an e-mail, fly by me on facebook, or drop an IM on me. Or attack me like a ninja (though the aformentioned methods of staying in touch sound a little less effort filled, I still enjoy a good ninja attack once in a while. or something).

So anyways…
Tomorrow, I’m going home for a two week vacation from work and most school. That’ll be fun. If you’re anywhere in CO, give me a call or something and we can hang out or something. (or ninja or something)

Also, hopefully I’ll have more time to blog. Which I really would like to do. Blogging seems to only occur on vacations now, but I decided I will try to post without going into the slimy details of my mostly mundane life and boring you to death.
Anyways, thanks for reading. I have about 10 minutes till work, so…
TTfN, and hopefully a new post awaits your ever curious eyes in the near, future.
Praying for you all and,

Till next post.
Your faithful typer,

I don’t know half of you half as well as I should like; and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve.
– JRR Tolkien

(woah, I just figured out what that means finally!)

Yep, that’s the title. Didn’t want to write anything else.
So Cooper my friend who works with me found this really really random site. I would say go check it out if you have a few minutes to spare reading strange little poems and stuff.


Just go there and start clicking things and enjoy 🙂

So it’s been pretty boring here on campus. There’s not a whole lot to do. Luckily I get to go do things with friends alot of weekends, but it’s kind of random, and if I don’t find someone to do something with me then I’ll end up having the most boring weekend ever.
This weekend was kind of fun, actually pretty fun.
More than last. When I have a blast again it will be a milestone. i don’t think I will be able to have a ton of fun for a long time. I’m still getting over things, learning to live differently and stuff.
If that doesn’t make any sense you can ask me, and I’ll explain, ha.

Anyway, I got to go to a jazz concert with Danny and his girlfriend this weekend and then go play guitar hero and stay up late at his place. That was fun, then yesterday I went with my roomates to someone’s house they are housesitting and we watched like four movies in a row lol. Two Arnold movies, and then both Transporter movies. That was sort of fun, but they’re pretty quiet during movies. I like talking and hanging out unless it’s a really good movie, but oh well.

Then today after going to another church I went to Placerita again, and then tonight got some friends together to go to Pho’s and that was cool. It’s a vienamese resturant with really good soups and great serving sizes.

Well, tomorrow I’m going to go in an hour early to work and watch them upgrade the wireless network controllers.
And…. my contact needs to be put back in, it popped out like 5 minutes ago and I’ve been typing with only one eye open.

Till next post.
Your faithful typer,

PS if you’re in town or nearby the school, let me know, I’m always up for hanging out and doing whatever. Especially since I have so much free time.
Just give me an e-mail or get my number and call.

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